Submitted by : infatuatedlittlebeing on Strugle

I was at my prime when girls love me,
I take advantage of my looks,
and simply throw at them my money.

Now I'm lying on the ground,
the haunting past flashes without a sound.
It consumes and drains all my memories,
it instills fears, it keeps me guilty.

I want to swim in the sea,
to wash away my sins,
to reach for my destiny,
and get my self cleansed.

Oh how promiscuous I was,
Shaytan riding on me like a horse.
Stripping off the best of me,
my beauty, my religion, my dignity.

I will be the one who will have to pick up the pieces,
pieces that I've trashed during my viceful prime years.

I will face and erase
all the humiliation
I will embrace His mercy*
wash away my sinful actions

My deeds haunt me,
but it keeps me hopeful.
To forgive myself,
be a man who is soulful.

To forget who I am,
and start once more,
be 'abdus Salam,
a muttaqi who will glow.


*There is a Hadith Qudsi which Allah SWT says:

"O son of Adam, as long as you call upon Me and put your hope in Me, I have forgiven you for what you have done and I do not mind. O son of Adam, if your sins were to reach the clouds of the sky and then you would seek My forgiveness, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, if you were to come to Me with sins that are close to filling the earth and then you would meet Me without ascribing any partners with Me, I would certainly bring to you forgiveness close to filling it."

Allah gives hope to mankind and shows His greatness of His forgiveness and mercy so that no one would despair due to the amount of sins he may have committed. May Allah pardon our sins, ameen.