Submitted by : omgsusie on Strugle

I'm shedding the past
Asking where myself might be
Inside there's inspiration to tell the truth
Because of as right now I'm living a lie
I'm playin' a part that I'm just pretendin'
Walking around forcin' a smile
Saying everything's okay
When I feel like I'm messed up
Once the girl so full of happiness
All of the sudden I've became the hands of a wreckless
And the girl worth it to lose
Watching myself let go, must've been right
I'm full of so much anger and ignorance
All because things will never be the same
Need to realize what lyes between the new me and the old me
Is an unmeasurable far distance
Even though it don't make a diffeernece
Getting sick and tried of this situation
Gotta tell my heart to walk away
I feel like I'm a prisoner who'll never see a happily ever after
I feel every step I take ends up in the middle of nowhere
Saying "today will be better"
I say that everyday
Because I know I deserve better
Yet nothing seems to change
Reality hits me like an outrage
Not knowing what to believe anymore
All this makes me sore
I'm holding onto could've beens
When I know there ain't no way to go back
I've tried and tried a thousand times
Until I actually opened my eyes to the brutal truth
The best of me is stuck in the past
I feel like I'm dying inside
Broken hearted, so many people commited this crime
Yet Im suffering the time
This pain feels like never ending
From all the hurt that's extending
All I've got are these memories of back in the day
And all theses miserable flashbacks of what evil convey
Let me take a deep breath and take this the other way
Hope and faith are the words I live by
Courage and potential are what I'm made of
I gotta dare to dream and believe in miracles
Because even though I'm a prisoner, I'm not no criminal
I'm ready for whatever's gonna hit me
I'm stronger than ever
I'm ready for the next round
So don't be scared to give it to me harder
I gotta get through
Hope you see what I feel from a different view
Gotta get it together
Gotta fight to find myself
It's A War

Susie A.