Submitted by : Miss_Sofia on Muslim Woman

Its part of life how we sometimes have to say goodbye
We use to be brothers and sisters under the sun,
We use to tell each-other how we still be rolling after we done
I use to tell them ill be their till the end ..They use to say Sofie Remember I was their since day… Laughter and jokes
Islam was not in our head nor did we want it to have a say
Some of us fully are aware of the deen , some of us know some of it and are fully capably to search for more, some of were reverts and some of us were non-muslims
Yet together we was even.. Only shared one thing in common and that was chilling.

I dont wanna go back to the way i was. I had to delete some of you to find the old me again. I had to ignore most of you to accept me again
I had to rudely ignore you so I could ignore the old me
I had to cut loose so I could cut loose of my old habbits

I truly love most of you … but for the sake of allah
I need to leave all of you… I seriously need recovering
If you wanna follow me I open my heart and give my hand out to you
But if you reject I sadly drop a tear and I need to forget! I wont be able to regret
I need to neglect walk away no strings attached our past can not have a say.

You get angry at me at me and tell me how raw I am going on
I am still the same old sofie believe me.. you cant see me because
You see the sister that you knew in the past skin tight clothes, hair our and looking
Like a drag… this is not beauty I was close to giving my mother
A heart attack…

I wish you could join me and embrace together so I wont have to leave you in the past.
I know you hate me because you telling me this is not friendship but in time
You will understand.

This is not messed up… Its life and it happen to be this way
I know its hard to see me this way … I had to delete most of you
To keep my self this way.

I heard the roomer in the streets “shes religious now”
“oh sofie never comes out” “ oh sofie is all dressed holly”
“give her few weeks will get her back to her self don’t worry”

Why don’t you join me? If you cant then all I can say is my
Last goodbye it hurts me inside I cant believe our friendship was written like this and it had to end … Religiously? Allah knows best you hate me now but some day I pray to god he shows you the ways of life, god saved me and he will insha allah show you a light….

I am not perfect as I got a lot to learn… I am worthless if it was not for allah to give me this return … I have my phone on and you can private message me all you want .. If you wanna change you know were I live… I love most you dearly but for allah’s sake
I gotta step back and live!

I wish you and your family have a beautiful life… I pray for you
My prayers shall always be insha allah dedicated to you
My wish is for you to follow me too… Oh I wish to hear you say
Sofie im coming to this way too x