Submitted by : Miss_Sofia on Strugle

I Write blood ink on paper. this goes out to the other me. Trying to take over my soul. trying to take my goals. Making me think i can make it on my own. Its nothing i am braver when i am alone. Trying to boost me up with pride and make jealousy seem alright. You make my heart filthy. Oh me i beg you to just agree with me. Dont make me agree with you. Me i want to leave this earth feeling true. I want to do what it its worth so i can live on in the better life. For some reason you show me earths nicest sights that are sinning of the night. Making me not see the light. But who needs light thats what you say. and i agree yet again and you leading me astray.

You make me wanna commit sins that i am not aware of. the littlest thing is the biggest sin but in my eyes its a minor thing. dont watch that as i continue most people wont admit and continue living like a hypocrite.

Im in a battlefield with my self. Because i am trynna fix up and the other me is tellin me sofie u dont need no help. Allah SWT I need you with every step i take, Every Breath i take, Every decision i make only you can grant me the after life.. Protect me From my nafs and the shaytan and sho me the true path of the pious life.

I dont wanna live like a sinner and die not knowing how it felt to live the pure pious life. It gets emotional as days go further. My naff needs to cure me and join forces so im mentally spiritually healthy from the corruption on this earth. for what it is worth ill be alone in a desert dedicating prayers to the mighty god. For what it is worth ill walk miles dedicating steps thanking our mighty god.

I wanna be given the reward of life, i wanna be applaud for the deeds i done right. i wanna be remembered with every good thought of every one that knew me.

I wanna show the good character that i know i can achieve. I wanna speak the perfect islamic tongue that i know i am capable of. I realized that we running out of time how many days weeks years hours or maybe minutes have we got left till our books are closed and we get judged and the decision upon heaven or hell regards our deeds is being decided on. My heart stops on that thought.

Allah gave us the gift of choice, Free will, thought. Life is a test to not be able to commit good or bad deeds what is the point of life's test on earth after all...


Me Vs Me is a secret confession. a relief on paper to understand my self and separate the real way of life and deception. I am in urgent need of allahs protection