Submitted by : Hjamil on Strugle

Normally my sleeping hours are about 6-8
But for some reason, last time I slept I woke up really late
It wasn't that I was out partying or catching a late film
Nor was it because I was lost for hours in the land of Skyrim
It wasn't that I was unbelievably tired
And just wishing I could go ahead and be fired

It was because I had no clue
The thought of being awake was stuck to my mind like glue
And forced me to think I wasn't sleeping through the days
It didn't even cross my mind I was asleep, I wasn't even phased
Cuz when life is just a whole lot of circus mirrors hiding what's real
Being asleep isn't hard when you rely more on what you're brain'll think and not what you're heart'll feel

I see now that others are still trapped in their dreams of false glory
And the only way I think I can help them is to tell my story

It seems I slept through a lot, slept through a full year
Seems I even slept through events of the people I hold dear
Don't get me started on how I slumbered through my first year of high school
That time of my life when it's all supposed to be cool
Oh I did go to school, I did attend my classes
I still remember everything I saw through my glasses

But still I was asleep
While my life went by I was still counting sheep
I talked to people who frankly didn't give a beep
And I even talked to others who, like me, were a hundred dreams deep
You see sleeping is the only time where you can't do things with your own control
Which means it's the only time when you're worshiping of the most merciful

Is depleted
So in the end the last year of my life was conceded
Conceded because all the decisions I made were impeded
Slowed down by mistakes and sins continuously repeated
That's why the last time I slept was for such a long long time
It wasn't because my alarm set for morning prayer forgot to chime

It was because I had no idea I was sleeping
If the awake me saw what I was doing he would be weeping
While I was asleep life was one big void
And when it came to Iblees I was a perfect toy
I had fear, but not of what I should have feared
I cared more about what others wanted and didn't care if the smiles of family were smeared

Then one day I heard something I found on the internet
A man told of his life and how it was once unset
He talked about how he found his religion
And how from then on life was filled with easy decisions
And something...just...clicked
No not a seat belt or the pressing of a button to make a car panic
But something awoke inside me,something I threw to my brain's rear
I can't tell you just what it was but now I know what's clear

I spent the last year of my life asleep and now I know what went wrong
I cared more about my swag and rep, and trying to memorize the latest song
I had forgotten about my Imaan
Forgotten about praying to the one who once made me so calm
I forgot about Islam
Forget rep and memorizing those songs, it's all about Muslim swag and memorizing the Quran!

I did things I can only ask forgiveness for
Apologize to all my brothers and sisters even if it means going door to door
Hoping to one day go back to where I was before
And to grab on to the one thing I'll always have no matter what the future has in store

While I was sleep I put my chances of ending up in paradise at stake
But now
I am awake
And hopefully one day the billions still sleeping will start to have sight 100% clean
And inshallah we will go onto live our lives bismillah hirrahman nirrahim